This semester at school is 100x better than the last.
Spring break is next week, and it's suppose to snow 5 inches by Friday. I don't get it either.

I just need spring so bad.

I was inspired to do a 365 for....a day. It would never last anyways.

2010:

Things need to change.
2009 was actually excellent. Started off solid with Pittsburgh and college, ended solid with the entire fam coming in for Christmas.

I need to be nicer / more accepting. It feels SO much better not to hate. Just go out, have a good time - accept current times for what they are. Yes, 99% of people like bad music, movies, etc etc - bad everything, but don't hate them for it. Make new mediocre friends instead.

I've finally come to the conclusion that I cannot game like I used to. After MANY attempts, I still cannot do it. I recently purchased a new 360 with games, and have to force turning it on and going online with it. I just don't enjoy them like I used to. I'm not giving up games for 2010, but it wouldn't be a bad idea.

When not at school, work, or out with friends - Read more. Play guitar more. Don't troll the internet for 4 hours straight doing nothing productive.

TAKE YOUR DAILY PICTURES.
I already screwed up 2010 by forgetting the first 3 days, but it works. It's already much better than my 2009 attempt (which started in February, and ended in April). I think a 365 would be wonderful to accomplish. (err, 363 in this case.)

I believe that's it. I would like to sit here and say "QUIT SMOKING" but I cannot make any promises, since I just break them in the end anyways.

Oh, hey.
This is still here.
It's snowing, a lot - and I'm going to start using this more.

Thanks for reading.
(nobody is reading)

Farewell.

I forgot this existed.

I have a journal that I type in that's private, which is nice because I can truly get it all out - however, I receive no feedback.

Kind of like having something public, that I can post random things to.

I'm probably still not going to use this much, but at least I know it exists now.

Too much emphasis on trivial bullshit.

I care WAY too much about what others listen to. I care WAYY too much about my hair being long and excellent. I care too much about being different.

I had a life changing revelation.
Friday night. I went out to dinner with my mother, and NO idea how this came up - but I'm glad I did.

I told her "Mom, I have no expectations, real goals, or standards of life really. Even if I got a job making a ton of money after college, I'm still going to live in a shitty one bedroom apartment downtown, and drive a shitty car that may or may not break down daily."

It was the beginning of the cleansing.

Saturday I realized the reason I am who I am - a shy piece of garbage that can't EVER express himself - who lives in a fucking fantasy world, where NOTHING was reality - it was all based on the music I listen to. This entire new world of music I discovered directly after high school contributes to the mute asshole that I am today. In high school, it was punk. Nothing else. I haven't really gave high school thought in years - because it was always a joke to me. Thinking back, I was INSANELY outgoing - I was always hyper, and had a shit ton of friends. I LOVED being around new people, and met friends on a constant basis. When I left high school - the punk left. I retired my NOFX and Descendants albums and picked up My Bloody Valentine and Joy Division albums. It unconsciously molded me for 6 years - creating the failure that I am today.

Sunday, I deleted 4000 songs from my PC / Ipod - and destroyed handfuls of CD's that made me feel like garbage - and went digging(took forever) for the shit loads of punk albums that have been sitting alone for far too long.

It's a rebirth.

Monday, I caught up on TONS of albums from bands that I used to love years back.

Tuesday(today) - hopefully getting all this bullshit hair cut off. I'm SO tempted to do it myself - but I'll butcher it for sure.



I truly feel like I've been born again.
Fuck you, I'm awesome.

I haven't posted in forever.
I just have nothing to say.

Summer is excellent.
Technology is almost reduced to nothing. It's wonderful.